lilly0 (lilly0) wrote,

Azure Chapter 17

Title: Azure  (Sequel to my Destiny One-shot)  Chapter 17 (of 19): A matter of forgiveness
Pairing: TakkiRyo, Pin, Sakumoto, Kimura/OC
Rating:  PG-13
Genre: AU, angst, romance, fantasy
Disclaimer: I don't own them or anything else JE-related, but the story is mine of course^^
Summary: It's a dark night when Yamapi meets him: Jin, a mysterious guy lying on the street, unconscious. But who is this guy he carries home? What is he? What's the secret behind his being? After one night he is gone...and Yamapi is left alone with all his questions. Born as a Hunter, Pi shouldn't question his life... but he can't help it. He has always been different... He takes the risk and leaves for a journey which might not have an end.
Meanwhile Jin struggles for his own destiny... together with his brother Ryo and his friend Jun. But how far are they allowed to go? Trying to pass the borders of their existence they try to find the truth... and their fate.
Can you decide on your own destiny?

His eyes felt heavy when he opened them. He blinked a bit in confusion, wondering where he was when he suddenly realized that he was still alive. His body felt like in fever, hot, almost burning… weaker than usual… but he was alive.

“Here we are.” Sho’s voice sounded soft. “This was close…”

“Yeah, really.” Jun grumbled angrily. “Worrying me like that, you stupid idiot!”

Ryo didn’t retort anything to that, he was feeling way too tired. Even too tired to lift his head from the pillow. Everything was still so dizzy… and if he wasn’t wrong he really had a fever… or just went over it.

“He is alright, isn’t he?” Jun asked in concern now. “He isn’t retorting anything…”

Sho hid his smile at Jun’s concern, nodding his head encouragingly. “He is alright. He just needs do recover.”

“Jun?” Ryo’s voice sounded hoarse, unusual for his own ears.

“Yes?” Jun knelt down a bit to be closer to Ryo. “What do you want? You are in a good position to ask for almost everything…”

Ryo smiled weakly. “It might be a huge thing for you.”

“Just spit it out already.” Jun sighed.

Five minutes later he closed the door to Ryo’s room, ignoring Sho’s glances. One could say that Sho was looking almost amused now, but at the same time Jun couldn’t even feel annoyed at him, because he had saved Ryo. “Just laugh already…”

“I’m not really sure if it’s something to laugh about.” Sho smiled a bit. “But it surprised me that you agreed to his wish.”

Jun sighed. “You don’t know him. He is always like that… in the end you find yourself agreeing to what he says.”

“But… visiting a Human and checking if he is alright?” Sho smiled softly. “I could do it for you, if you want me to.”

Jun shook his head slightly, though it felt so tempting to agree to that, but it wasn’t right. “He asked me.” he explained simply. “He actually never asks for something. It’s easy to do something like that, visiting a Human, if it’s for my family.” He sighed a bit, but before he could say anything else, his eyes caught Jin, leaning against the wall close to Ryo’s room. Jun sighed deeply, patting Sho’s shoulder apologetically. “There are a few things I need to do, including Ryo’s little wish.” he told him. “The things you wanted to tell me…”

“You don’t need to love me.” Sho interrupted him.

“What?” Jun blinked in surprise.

“I said: You don’t need to love me. Maybe I’m desperate and I guess I’m already lost. All I wish for is your acceptance and your trust. If I have all this, I’ll be alright. I just can’t let go… If you won’t love me, I want at least be your companion.” He shrugged a bit. “So I guess it’s not me who has to make a decision, but you…” He smiled warily. He had known it from the very beginning on that he wouldn’t be able to leave Jun, no matter what. Now Jun had given him the option to decide and Sho couldn’t help but grasp this tiny straw of hope that was offered to him. Especially since last week… since Jun had begged him to help Ryo, treating him like a friend and someone he could rely on. This had been the most beautiful moment for Sho.

Jun had to pull his thoughts together when he walked towards Jin, Sho’s words were still ringing in his head. But he had to delay that… there was no help to that. Now there was one thing more important.

“Jin…” Jun showed the other a short, warm smile. “Won’t you go to see him?”

Jin rubbed over his head. “I can’t.”

“Why’s that?”

“Are you really asking?” Jin asked, almost angrily.

“Yes, I’m asking.” Jun answered calmly. „Why won’t you go and look after him now when all the both of you want right now is each other?“

Jin sighed. “I almost killed him.”

“Yes.” Jun nodded his head. “I was there too. Remember?”

“That’s not fun, Jun.”

“I’m not making jokes.” Jun answered sharply. “I mean it as it is. You almost killed him, I was there. And better be damn thankful towards me that I managed it to bring Sho along… who saved his life. And be freaking thankful towards this spell that happened in the moment where you really wanted to kill him.” Jun looked at Jin insistently. “You can’t make undone what you did. But you can make things better again. Avoiding him won’t help with that though. Be responsible and be thankful that things turned out well after all. And just be the Emperor you are, or rather: the Emperor you want to be, and look after him now.”

Jin blinked for a moment, then he chuckled. “Who would have believed that out of all you would be the one giving me such a speech. When we met you were a mess… and an emotionless and dark-hearted guy.”

Jun snorted. “I know I have always been gorgeous. Now more than ever.“

Jin smiled a bit. “Thanks Jun.“ He sighed. “And you? Where are you going to now?”

“Fulfilling your difficult brother’s wish.” Jun smirked about his own pathetic situation. “In my words that means that I’m going to a human now.”

Jin’s eyes widened in surprise. “WHAT?”

“I know what you want to say.” Jun shrugged Jin off before he could complain or get angry. “Not only am I apparently supporting this strange relationship, I’m also going to this Human in person. But let me tell you… I don’t care anymore. My deceased wife’s wish was to not hold a grudge and to fight for my own life to become good again. And exactly this I’m doing now. Took me long enough to figure…”

Jin shook his head. “Out of all… you.” Then he smiled. “I want to be strong like you.“

“I’m not strong.“ Jun shrugged. “I just learned my lesson.”

“And I should learn mine?”

“That’s pretty much what I wanted to say, yes.” With that Jun turned around, disappearing through the entrance door.


Jin opened the door to Ryo’s room silently, his eyes immediately catching Sho’s frame, who was currently checking on Ryo’s wounds.

Sho smiled at him. “I’m in your way right now, aren’t I? It’s okay. I’ll tell you what to do, then I can leave you two alone.“

Jin blinked in confusion. “Aren’t you afraid of me? After all the things I’ve done?”

Sho rolled his eyes at that. “I’m not afraid of Jun. What makes you think that I’m afraid of you?”

“Great.” Jin huffed at that. “Somehow I feel pathetic.”

Sho tilted his head. “Isn’t it better like that? I wouldn’t prefer it to be feared and hated…“

“Yes.” Jin smiled. “That’s true.”

Sho returned his smile contently, then he handed Jin a bowl and some tissues. “That’s for disinfection. Just be careful, please. It will hurt him.”

“I will watch out.” Jin reassured him before Sho left. Then he sat down on the chair, next to his brother, looking down at the younger one nervously. “Are you awake, Ryo?”

“Do you want me to be awake?” Ryo asked instead of an answer.

“I’m not sure.” Jin admitted silently.

“So you would like to see me dead?” Ryo concluded, not sounding too frightened by that.

Jin blinked in surprise. “Of course not, that’s not what I meant with asleep.“

“Why do you want me asleep?”

“Because I’m not sure if you will forgive me.” Jin’s long fingers angled for one of the tissues, wetting it with the liquid in the bowl. “Watch out.” he said softly. “Sho-kun said it will hurt.” With that he moved the tissue over Ryo’s back, carefully cleaning his wounds. He pulled his hand away a bit when Ryo couldn’t suppress a pained sound. “Sorry.” he said.

When Ryo didn’t answer he continued his work, pressing the towel against Ryo’s back, trying to ignore the wincing and the tension of his younger brother. When he had finished, Jin felt almost relived that he didn’t need to hurt Ryo any further… though it was just to support healing his wounds.

“I can’t leave him.” Ryo said out of the blue. “If that’s what you want me to do, you have to kill me.”

Jin sighed. “I already figured it out that you would say that. And I know where Jun is going to right now.”

“You are telling me that you are okay with it?” Ryo asked in surprise.

“No…” Jin rubbed over his head. “I’m not sure if I’ll ever understand it. But I guess I have no other option.”

“Why didn’t you kill me?” Ryo asked silently. “You could have ended it there…”

Jin looked at the other in shock. “Why are you saying something like that?” He recalled the things he had seen in Ryo’s head the moment he had realized what he was doing. The moment something had stopped him by letting his senses back into his mind. He stroked over Ryo’s head softly, before he lied down next to the younger one, pulling him into his arms. “I remember… in your head I heard you screaming. You almost begged me to kill you. And you talked about the Empress pain… What did you mean?”

Ryo wriggled a bit, not sure if he really wanted to be close to Jin right now, but in the end he gave in. His warmth was too promising and his heart was beating against his ear, he could hear it clearly. But it felt good and he was too tired to fight Jin now. So he decided to let go… “Because” he sighed a bit. “I guess it’s one of the best-kept secrets in our family.”

“Eh?” Jin blinked. “Why don’t I know it then?”

“Because you are the first-born son.” Ryo smiled sadly against his brother’s chest. “I’m the second-born.”

“So what’s your secret?”

“The necklace the Emperor made many years ago… its original purpose got changed. That’s why actually the first-born son is not its original carrier.”

Jin nodded his head, he had already thought something like that too. “So it’s you who is the original owner.”

“No.” Ryo sighed a bit. “It’s not me, but the Empress’ Hunters.”

Jin blinked in surprise. So giving the necklace to Yamapi had been the best idea he had ever had? So it was Yamapi who saved him? He opened the door for him? The door out of this curse and into freedom… by letting him realize his feelings and his mind, right at the moment when it had almost been too late. “This makes sense, Ryo. I gave it to a Hunter.”

“I know.” Ryo smiled a bit. “I couldn’t tell you back then, but I was so relieved.”

“But what has it to do with you then?”

Ryo sighed. “I’m the Empress heir, like every second-born son.” He paused. “She was the one changing the necklace’ purpose. Originally the necklace should have been there for the purpose of collecting all the negative feelings. Especially those of its owner – you for example.”

“Yes.” Jin nodded his head. “It pulled all my negative feelings aside.”

“Why did you put it off then?”

“Because…” Jin smiled. „Anger…pain…sadness… these are all feelings which belong to us. We have to learn to deal with them on our own. Otherwise we won’t be able to live on our own. We would be just marionettes then. Besides…that I felt that it didn’t belong to me.”

“See?” Ryo smiled a bit. “The Empress thought the same. That all these feelings belonged to a person. And that it saved no one if these feelings were erased. Hence she changed the necklace’ purpose, by putting a spell onto it… If the real owner wears it, he or they will be able to open a door. For you to look through my eyes. And to break through the curse. But she had to do something about its original purpose, she couldn’t erase it that simply.”

“So what did she do?” Jin asked, almost speechless by all the things Ryo had kept him… things he had kept silent about since he was alive.

“She put it on herself. All the bad feelings, the pain, the anger, the sadness… they got collected inside her. She had to learn to deal with it. And with her… every successor. Like me.”

Jin stared at Ryo in shock. “You are telling me that everything the necklace absorbs and took away from me…got to you?“


“This was the pain you had been talking about?”


Jin gasped. “This is just unbelievable! How could that happen that the younger brothers had to suffer for the older ones all the time?” Jin’s fingers brushed through Ryo’s hair softly. “If only I had known…”

Ryo shook his head. “It wouldn’t have changed anything… But now it ended.”

“So the curse is over? We broke it?“

“Don’t you feel it?”

Jin smiled into Ryo’s hair. “We are free.”

“So…who cares about the curse anymore, Master?”

Jin chuckled. “Why are you calling me Master?”

“Well you are the Emperor.” Ryo grumbled. “And you punished me like one.”

Jin sighed a bit. “So I was right. You won’t forgive me so easily… And I don’t even have a proper apology. And I didn’t punish you like an Emperor, I punished you like someone who lost it.”

“That’s true.” Ryo mused.

“So, what should I do so that you’ll forgive me?”

Ryo smiled a bit. “I’ll think about that…and tell you then.”

Jin chuckled a bit. “However you want it. I won’t complain. I already promised our mother many years ago when you were still a child to always watch over you. And to fight the darkness inside me.”

“Well, at least she can rest in peace now.” Ryo mused.

“I hope so.”

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