lilly0 (lilly0) wrote,

Monologue (RyoJin Multi-chap): Prologue

Title: Monologue: Prologue (Chapter 0/13)
Pairing: RyoJin
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, friendship
, bit angst
Disclaimer: I don't own them or anything else JE-related. But the story is mine of course^^
It happens almost out of a sudden. 'Almost', because Jin should have seen the signs. But too pre-occupied with the problems in their relationship, it slipped his attention. And then Ryo is gone... leaving just a single note. Where he is, is a mystery, as is what drove him to leave. Desperate to save their relationship Jin decides to fight against unknown demons of their hearts. He is searching for the key to understanding Ryo's past... so that he might be able to open the locked door again.
Note: This story is built up like a little crime story, with Jin looking for reasons, answers...and Ryo. Every chapter starts and ends with a letter Jin is writing down into a notebook - like a diary.

Note2: Flashbacks and letters Jin has written are in [italic]

Dear Ryo-chan,
This is a love-letter.
I just wanted to make it clear once and for all: It is a love letter.
I know I suck with these things; that's why I’ll repeat it over and over again. Maybe I'm stupid, but I love you.
I'm sorry, if you don't want me to love you.
As I said, I’m stupid sometimes.
But I'm not stupid for loving you, right?
When I met you for the first time, you were so tiny and cute that I wanted to squish you.
I was cool back then, right?
I am still cool. But now we could be cool together. 
Because you are cool too. You made me the coolest guy ever when we went out for the first time.
Do you still remember?
You have to. Because it was the best first date ever.
Really, if I could, I would rip the sky into pieces for you.
A life without you
is a life alone
without love
But it's also a life without fear
and pain
and fights
and struggles
Without me you are free
Am I also free without you?
Today I will just sing for you.
Will you hear me?
I hope you will. Because more than anything else I want to see your smiling face.
When you smile, you are my own little sun.
See, this is a love letter, because I love you.
Cold! Jin blinked in confusion when he woke up in the middle of the night, shivering like crazy. When he eyed the open window, he sighed. One of them had accidentally left it open. And he was so much more a summer-spring person, than a fall-winter person. But there was no help to it, he couldn’t change the seasons after all. And even if he had such a power, he should first change his own problems… his real problems.
Jin crawled out of his bed, closing the window silently, not wanting to wake Ryo up. But it was Ryo… and recently he had just a light sleep.
“Cold…”  Ryo mumbled tiredly.
“Sorry.” Jin crawled back into the bed. “The window was open.” He wanted to wrap his arms around Ryo’s trembling body to warm him a bit, but something about Ryo was so cold…again. It made it impossible for Jin to approach him. He stroked over the younger one’s arms soothingly, not sure how he should react to this Ryo, who seemed to be so far away from him though he was lying right next to him. They had been so close once. What had happened? In a blink of a moment, it had changed. They were like two shadows next to each other.
Jin wanted to understand it. He wanted to ask Ryo if they were okay, if something was bothering him and if he was at fault. But he couldn’t. He feared the answers. He didn’t want to loose Ryo, he didn’t want to give up that easily.
Little did Jin know at this moment that tomorrow, in a blink of an eye, something would change completely again. And that the right way to understand it would be hidden deep underneath their surface. The key to understanding and trust.
24 hours later:
“Ryo!?” Jin held the letter in his hands, his fingers clinging to it as if they could change the words written on the paper. Jin didn’t even realize how his body was trembling, his tensed fingers almost hurting. He rushed through the apartment a second time, but he didn’t find him. Ryo was not here. His eyes were shifting back to the sheet of paper, to the words scribbled down there in Ryo’s clumsy hand-writing. Jin read it over and over again, but still he couldn’t grasp it.
How could this happen!? Where was his beloved stupid little shrimp? Why did it have to come that far?


Dear Ryo,
at this day…
Did you wonder how I would feel when I read the letter you wrote to me?
If I would feel hurt? Rejected? Angry?
Did you think I would give up that easily?
I have news for you, silly:

A/N: New story! ^_^ I just missed my OTP so much... I had to write them ^^
For a more detailed explanation to this story click here. I posted it in an extra post^^
Note: Hey dear friends and readers! Thanks so much for all your support!! So, I wanted to tell you that my Request Post is open. If you feel like requesting a specific pairing or situation you can do so HERE

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